A question from Quora being answered…
First off, let me say, I feel for you and I know *exactly* how you feel.
All I can do is tell you my story – you have some great answers before mine, so… take it all in.
Personally, I did not even know I was “depressed” for at least ten years of living in depression. Then, at the very end, I broke down and talked to my doctor about it. She prescribed something, and WOW – it worked!
Of course, a few months later it was no longer working.
And for the next 10 years, I went on prescription after prescription and mixes thereof and I just went up and down and all around.
Self-medicating was a problem. Over prescriptions were a problem. It was … a problem.
Finally – three things happened. I became a patient of a very good psychiatrist and he took me back to one single medication that I had been on once or twice already. He changed the dosage though. And he monitored and gave it a chance. He made ME give it a chance.
On his direction, I also started an RTMS regime.This fit very well with my belief and practice in meditation, and the retraining of neural pathways – basically, recognizing the brain as the source and recognizing that it can change its wiring – kinda the way it did in order to get and *stay* depressed.
And finally, I got to know my brain a little better – I can now recognize when a thought stream will let me spiral down – and in recognizing it, I have the opportunity to stop it before it gets out of control. Maybe the meditation and RTMS have helped with that too.
I am very glad that you came here and wrote this. You are not alone, and there really are solutions. It is so important that you know that – that is the foundation on which you can build.
Hope this helps. Take good care and let us know how you are doing. 🙂